Five Minute Friday:Awake

This piece is for Five Minute Friday hosted by Lisa-Jo at Gypsy Mama. The rule are simple: write without correcting or rereading for 5 minutes.

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I cannot believe how awake I feel after a week of new, after two weeks of crazy new. This journey to this mysterious place filled to the brim with more than my words can describe has kept me up thinking, dreaming, questioning, reasoning. I should go to bed, a bed foreign to me a foreigner, but I want to connect with my people half way across the world in the warmth and freedom of South Africa. Oh, how I miss you.

I wish I had more to write. I think I'm not as awake as I thought I was...

Stop.

It is the end of a long week. I am tired and off to bed. We are going to attempt our first Japanese train ride to the Umeda which is in northern Osaka, I think.

Much love to you
Philippa

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