a thousand blue fish

On the 31 January 2001 I wrote this in some journal type thing: “I am so full of dreams and desires for my life.   I can’t make out what anyone points to and I find that a bit scary.   I know for sure there are many things I want to accomplish but I can’t find the specific, right thing.   I want to help people.   I want to learn different languages and tap my talents.   I want to learn to dance and to cook and take art lessons.   I want to be known.   I want passion, I want adventure.   I want culture and history and sometimes, I’ll want stability.   I want to experience life.   I want to be a teacher.   I want the right the wrongs.   I want to kick some druggie butts and put kids in their places.   I want a house with a swimming pool.   There must be trees and I’ll grow herbs and flowers.   I want a husband who is like me, but at the same time very different.   He must be hard working, honest, intelligent, ...

this is a post about resting we are looking ahead to a month that may be financially worse then all of the other months ok, maybe not worse we've had bad months before but before we were not responsible with our finance i have a choice in how i respond i can wobble and cry and shut down or i can rest "Come to Me, all those laboring and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28 i'm choosing rest and smiles and praying that God would give life to something Emiel and i know will support and in turn give life.  Please pray for us, that God would continue His work in us and that He would give us clear direction