When I was a student I used to write poetry, dark, meaningful poetry. I was also in a depressive state and drunk much of the time. For some reason it has always been easier to write in that state then to write in this one. Sad as I am I have this sense that I am supposed to write. I think maybe i have taken so long to discover and pursue the blog thing, because I've been scared I couldn't write without some kind of dark inspiration. But I want to write, so I will write choosing new inspiration, like my redemption, my husband, my children, family, our future. I was going to write about beautiful things, but we are almost home and I need to finish.